♥ VPire.VPower ♥

Some photo's of us :D

2010-12-13T08:03:00.000-08:00

My pretty boy & me !

My SOul. My Desire. My destiny. My LOVE. My one and Only.

Home Sweet Home with precious.

FIRST AVENUE !

Heading to prangin mall but ended up in 1st avenue ! HAHA!

Wanted to find dad but when i reach, he went out already :( Sigh.. Anyway, i fetched my sister to one stop to have lunch with me..Hehe.. then meet up with babe n his mom :D sis treat me for lunch! Happy!

On The way to gurney to watch Narnia & to have dinner with his family @ Chicago Ribs~ Yummy!

On his dark romantic bed!

After dinner :D

Baby Alto!

2010-12-13T07:56:00.000-08:00

Been waiting for a month and here it is! My precious baby Alto! hehe. thanks to daddy for buying me my first car. I will take extra care on it and i will work hard i promise! Whee~ Happy that my whole family said that it's nice. Thanks for Babe Justin Khaw for helping me to choose the perfect car!! If it's not because of him, i'm stuck with Hyundai i10 now.. lol.. that sucks but this alto ! IT ROCKS!! damn, i love it.. thank u daddy !! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

My Destination

2010-11-28T07:27:00.000-08:00

No, it doesn't matter if it's forever or not, cos' i'll always be waiting until the day you say i do .

It's amazing how we spend our time together. It might be boring at times we have nothing to do but we always keep each other happy and this is what i treasure most cos' now i know what love is.. It's happiness..
No matter how bad we argued and fight, i know it's worth fighting for because without the all the fights, we learn nothing new in our relationship. We all make mistakes, sometimes our mistake might hurt one another but what can we do? Time is too short to be unhappy. =) ain't that right?
It's okay to be childish when we're in a fight sometimes, cos' being serious doesn't take us anywhere but goodbye.
Perfection.. ? I never thought perfection existed until i met him, i know everyone who's in love would say whatever i'm saying now.. Cos' we all wish to hold on to who we have now for the rest of our life.. But i'm sorry to say that i do not wanna hold on to him for the rest of my life, i will guide him and give him everything he needs instead of just sitting there waiting for forever.. Magic isn't in reality, we have to make things work sometimes, we can't just sit there and do nothing.. Hmm.. I have absolutely no idea what i'm talking about but i'm seriously madly in love with my mr.right. I remember how strangers asked me "how are ya mad?" i answered "yeah, i'm great..still here.." even though i don't feel great at all.. i feel like shit to be exact.. but things changed when i found my mr.right.. I am more than just fine.. more than great.. more than amazing.. more than good.. I'm ALIVE, precisely!
Do you ever feel like you're here when you're not?
this is what i used to feel.. But now, i'm here..I'm here for good.. I'm never gonna leave, cos i have a great reason to live and move on!
I used to live to let go.. Now i live to be stronger.. It's all because of him. =)
But people change.. I pray and i hope that it'll only get better.
Sitting here.. listening to the sound of the pouring rain while missing him.. Wish i could tell him everything i have in mind.. Even i couldn't, i'll let time do the talking and understanding.
I get mad, frustrated and irritated very easily.. I GET JEALOUS easily too.. Perhaps thats the reason why i get hurt easily even though it's not his fault.. =) I have great imaginations you know and the weird thing is sometimes my imagination comes to reality and thats what scares me the most. =S it's creeping me out sometimes.. I knew that he will lie to me.. and he did.. Heh. But it doesn't matter anymore.. i don't give a f**k about the reasons why.. Cos' I know that he's true to me now.. God knows what else he's hiding but I don't wanna know a thing anymore cos it doesn't matter! All that matter is me and him now <3 the love of my life... our future.. we're gonna have a family together and erase our shittY past =)
I hope that this blog will stay here until i get old and let my children to read about their parents history =D hah.. I'm retarded i know..
I love you justin khaw. i always will, i promise and i swear <3
xoxo,
elena.

I'm Okay

2010-10-13T05:43:00.001-07:00

It always begin with a smile.. Everything you do, It fits me perfectly. Sometimes i wonder is it okay to say that i'm okay when i'm not... You said forever and always baby, I believe you. I'm sure we'll make it . Even though I have tears in my eyes & Blood on my wrist but i'm still standing here waiting for forever like you said baby. I would never do anything that will hurt you cos' i can't afford to see you in pain. Not even for a minute or a second.. No matter what happens in the future, i'll hold on.. hold on tight to you. I'll never let you go.. You're the only reason why i'm still here. I know words are only words but i never do you wrong. It's hard to maintain the same heat all the time, we get cold every once awhile. So i'm hoping that when we get cold we'll keep each other warm instead of hiding in the corner. I don't know what to say :( I'm happy when i'm not baby. I'm sorry for not forgetting what you did. cos it hurts me :( love u still, always & forever.

It's His Love

2010-10-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

There are good times and bad times but i'll always remember everything you've done for me baby because you're the best.
You've hurt me badly but baby time heals, I won't give a damn about others, only you. All i care about is you. You gave me a lot of unforgettable moments, tears of joy, butterflies in my tummy, unexpected surprises and the greatest love of all.
To be honest, you also gave me some moment of pain, tears of pain, broken heart, sorrows and flash backs.
Sometimes i wonder can your love overcome your anger? Because it hurts me badly when you say all those sarcastic words.. You often blame me but i always give in, i hope you know that i can always do anything for you and endure you. So baby please, try to control your temper and anger towards me sometimes. I'm not a man, my heart is not made with stones nor rocks.. It's made with blood baby. Every single thing you do to me, i'll always remember it.. Bitter or sweet, i will never leave but i will always place our sweet memories on my first priority like how i placed you in my heart baby.
If i have the money, i would buy the world and name it ours :3
But i know it's impossible but baby when i'm with you, i feel like everything is possible. Because you're the sweetest thing ever.
I'm sure you notice, whenever you're close to me, my heart beats faster and faster.. Sometimes i have to hold my breath when i know you're about to kiss me.
:P hehe. My love for you never change a bit. I want us to last baby, you're the one for me i'm sure. I will wait for you. I know our time will come one day like you always wrote on the letter.
I still feel kinda sad about what happen to us last few days baby. I'm still kinda lost. Keep wondering, why am i happy when i'm not? haha. Am i avoiding the pain or am i to coward to face it.. Cos baby i can't believe it :(
Anyway, the point i'm sayin' this is because i want you to know that nothing can overcome my love for you.. I'll save the best for you.. I'll give you all the best i can baby. Just please don't ever leave me or take me for granted cos' it's gonna kill me. I can't even imagine you with someone else or imagine you walking away from me.
But for now, i ain't gonna care so much cos i know how much you love me and i'm proud so say that :)
It's been 5months we're together baby, soon to be 6months.. I realize so many things when i'm with you. Love ain't complicated, Love ain't a game, Love ain't a lie, Love ain't a disgrace, Love ain't a bullet and Love ain't a challenge.
Love ain't complicated because you always make things easy for me :) It ain't a game because you never wanted to win. It ain't a lie because i can see your true color through your crystal clear eyes. Love ain't a disgrace because you showed me harmony and joy, there's nothing to be ashamed of to be in love. It ain't a bullet cos' when you hurt me, i ain't dying.. I'm still here loving you more and more each day. Love ain't a challenge because we do things together, we're cooperative, we're happy to do it together and lastly, WE ARE ONE :)
I love you Justin Khaw <3
I always will.
xoxo.
Love,
Your Love.